I am grateful for everything that I have right now. I know life doesnt work with the way that I want it and I accept the fact. I cant expect for life to be fair to me because I know, that's just not it. It is like expecting lions or tigers doesnt eat me because I dont eat them. I learn how to stand on my own feet, I learn how to be strong for quite sometimes, that's just me going through the days. The days where I dont feel the need to live my life anymore. I've been surrounded by many kind of people, the fake, the drama queen, the attention seeker, and so on. but yet, I am still here minding my own business cause I know, if I care abt how they live their life, it wont get me no where. I should just focus on my own life, at the end of the day it is always gonna be me. Only me. You can't trust people nowadays, people come and go and no one really stays. Truth is, everybody is going to hurt you, you just have to find the one who's worth suffering for and right now, believe me I dont find any yet. I am still learning how to not depends my life on someone or something. I've been told that 'dont depends your life on something you may lose' truth to be told, I lost about everything in my life. That is why I know it is only going to be me, just me. Cause everything will come and go and leave it all to me. I am standing alone, clueless of what to do but to be strong. That is the saddest truth, but in all the darkness that coming along the way, I know somehow by any chance, I am going to find the light at the end of the tunnel. I just have to work for it and wait for the time itself.

I should have known better that you will never fight for me. I am never as important as you are to me. I should have known that I am never gonna be the girl that you'll love until the very end. I am so tired of giving you chances, hoping that you'll at least realize that im trying so hard to keep you forever, and clearly you have no idea how important you are in my life. Yes, I can see you are also trying to be the best but once I give you another chance, the effort for you to keep me has gone. I miss the old you, I just need that person in my life. You've changed and I admit it, I am really sad about that. But I know, there is nothing that I can do about it. That's just how life works, right? People change and feelings fade. Now I know where I stand in your life. I just hope that you'll find a girl that is way better than me that can keep up with your bullshits and I hope that you'll live happily with whoever she may be. I think, your 'forever' ends here.