all in one night, i feel like i have lost valuable things in my life. arguing w you and drag it til god knows when really hurts me. i cant go to sleep thinking about what are we going through. i cant sleep thinking about all my wrong doings towards you. i know i've hurt you so much, i know how big your patience is to deal w me. i know i can be such a bitch sometimes and i am so sorry for all that. i should have known that i can never be good enough for you. for everyone else. i even lost my bestfriend after arguing w you. i really cant take the pressure all in one night. i keep seeing myself as a bad friend, a bad girlfriend, a bad person as well. i didnt ask much but i just want you to know that i really love you and i cant bare to lose another person that I love. you meant the world to me and i know i did so many bad things to you. god knows it is uncountable. i really love you and i dont want you to leave me. i am hoping for you to come back to me, lets just fix these whole thing and go back to being normal. i really miss you, the thought of losing you kills me. it tears me apart that im missing you so much, and we are arguing and you're not here to fix this together w me. i want to hug you and tell you that eventually everything will get better cause i hate seeing us being miserable. i want to be happy with you and im sorry if happy is not what you feel when you're w me. well it is vice versa when it comes to me. you bring me joy though sometimes you like to say something that hurt my feelings but it is fine to me cause that is how you deal w people and i accept you just the way you are. it is just, i miss you so much i want to bleed my eyes out. i really hope you're not going to leave me like how everyone else did.