Whenever I feel like giving up, i started to think 'why should I give up now? Why do I feel the need to give up?' yknow. Ive been strong for far too long, why should I give up? What was that for? For fuck sake, I know Im strong. I can do this. Looking back, it is such a waste if I want to give up. I have to keep going and I know, some how soon I'll get what I want. I'll be happy about it. So there is no need for me to give up. More over on someone that I love so much.

Why do I feel so alone. I like being alone, it is kind of my thing. But what Im tryna say is I hate being lonely. I like being alone, but I hate being lonely. Ya can see people all around me, laughing and all shits. But when it comes to 4 a.m. I feel nothing but lonely. There is nothing I could do about that. I have no idea until when I have to feel this way sigh.